Blonde Overtakes..Random Thoughts

Ok Ok We admit it.. the blonde in me is standing up and taking notice.  Slip slap.. I said Ms Blonde thing get out of my brain cells.  I want to be able to write again.  I miss all my quirky little posts.  I'm afraid to post some of the stories that you have coming out of me.  My readers might die of a heart attack.  It's not my fault that you don't want to have any.  Or maybe its me that doesn't want to have any. 

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Husband, go play with that thing on your own time.  Stop waking me up every morning playing with yourself.  It is not romantic at all.   Please don't tell me to get out of bed because you are making it bounce all over.  I want to sleep at 6 am.  I want you to get out of the bed and go play by yourself.

OMG I just sounded like my mother!!!  Help Help!!  Bring back the blonde!
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Have I told any of you that I was a blonde when all the blonde jokes started coming out?  I was terrified that all my brain cells were going to die because of all the chloride going to my brain.  Most times I have incredibly dark hair. 

OK well most of my hair is dark.  WTH is happening to my hair??  It's always been straight and thick.. now I have this freaking white hair coming in.  I said WHITE not gray.  Not only is this stuff all over my head..and I think I look like a pepper shaker.  This new hair feels like wire.  What does that mean???  Am I going to have pubic hair on my head when I get old?  Help help... need sane woman here.

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My son let my cat out of the house yesterday!!  My beautiful cat.  The sad part is... I didn't realize he was gone until late at night and I was looking for him.  I mean come on!  He drives me insane all day and the day that I don't notice he gets out of the house???  I feel for my neighbors...imagine this.. the crazy woman next door with black and white hair is screaming Tom Tom where are you?  at the top of her lungs wearing a long dark blue nightgown in the middle of a dark pitch night... I'm so white my face was glowing.  I probably looked like a screaming head without a body.  Neighbors if you read this.. Well don't look at my house!!!  And blame it on Jason.

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Thank goodness for the tv star that has a big hiney.. You changed the style for the better.  Come on what was up with these fashion designers about 3 years ago when my baby girl was 4.  She was wearing these pants that showed off her butt.  Let me tell you I didn't know before she put them on.  It wasn't the greatest place for her to have them on when I realized.  WTH are designers thinking when they make that kind of clothes for a 4 year old child????
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Woman... please try to get your stories straight.  If you tell me at one point, that the state is going after the father of your son for child support.  I'm going to believe you.  But if a year later, you tell me that your baby's father died in a car accident while hitchhiking and you can't get social security because you can't prove that he was the father.  I'm going to know that one of those stories is a lie.  SO Tell me which one it is.


Blondie out

Good Hair - What is it worth to you?

This week I happened to watch an Oprah show.  I'm telling you that I was totally shocked.  How much is good hair worth to you?  Well I was kind of watching and kind of not until I heard that a weave cost $1,000 and you could get a layaway plan with that.  Did you know that the chief capital of the world for weaves is Los Angeles?

I just never saw the purpose of doing all that much to your hair.  Ok yes I have been considering coloring it since the gray is coming in.  (Frowns)  I don't want grey hair.  Ok It's actually white.  I will be a platinum blonde some day.  It runs in the family.

It's just that I can see better ways to spend my money.  Let's think about what a thousand dollars could do for me right now.  Ok that's my house payment.  Hair vs House..  Ok the house wins.

This is just my thoughts.  I don't mean to offend anyone.

What Happened to Wednesday?

I know that Wednesday exists but what happened to it?  I woke up this morning to Faith saying, "Mommy, it's Thursday.  Are you coming to class today?"  Wait... Wait... what happened?  Where did Wednesday go?  What did I do yesterday that made me completely forget about it?

Have you ever had this happen to you?

Journal

Today, I decided to share a journal of the first days of Faith's life with you.  Its mushy so I warn you now.

Monday, October 7

Dearest Faith,

You are finally here and we feel so blessed.  We have waited a very long time for you.  Kenny, your new daddy, is taking your big sister, Kaitlyn, to you Aunt Tabby's house until you are released from the hospital.  I think Kenny is glowing.  He is so excited.

At 7:30 this morning, Marsha called me to tell me that her water broke.  I was so excited and scared at the same time.  I don't know how to bring up a little girl.  But I will learn as you grow up.  At 8:30 a.m., we found that you were going to have to be delivered by c-section because your heart beat went down to 45.  I was terrified.  Not only for you but for Marsha as well.  You see, I've known Marsha since she was very little.

I can't help but think and pray that this is truly what is best for you.  I know that Ken and I can give you love and material things but I don't know who can give your more love.  Marsha thinks its right.  She does not want to raise another child.  But my thoughts are on how you will handle it.  Will we tell you about it upfront or will we hide it?  The plans are for me to adopt you soon.  Will Marsha change her mind and want to keep you before we leave?  I'm so afraid to hide it though.  I know someone that it was hidden from.  He's an adult now.  When he finds it will it devestate him?  I think so.

I loved you from the moment you were born at 12:59 p.m.  You weighed 7 pounds 3.2 ounces and were 20 inches long.  You are so beautiful with your fat cheeks, long fingers and long toes.  My heart is so full that I don't know if it will burst or not.  I truly have never been happier.

I called my mom to tell her to come to the hospital to see you.  She is so excited.  She has a brand new baby granddaughter.

Thursday, October 10

Good morning, sweet pea.  I got up this morning to the sound of your precious cry.  It was a joyful feeling for me.  I've wanted to hear a child in my house for so long.  I love you so much.

Today as I held you, you smiled at me.  I almost cried - it was so beautiful.  I took you downstairs to meet the pets:  Casper (the lab), Harley (the Golden Retriever), Lucky (the sheltie) and Shadow (russian blue cat).  Casper put his nose on your arm and smelled you.  giggles You hit him with your hand.  It was so cute.

About 2:00 p.m. today, we (you and I) went to your Aunt Tabby's house.  There you met your wonderful Aunt Tabby, who will be your babysitter and Godmother.  I chose Tabby (my sister) as your Godmother because she loves kids and understands them.  I have never in my life seen somebody who understands kids better than her.  So I figured whatever I can't give you, she can.  In the event of your daddy and my death, Tabby will raise you for me.  Next you met your new cousins, Jeremie.  I think he was a little scared of you because you are so small.  Then came Jason who couldn't wait to meet you and last but not least was Chelsey.  I think she fell in love with you at sight.  Chelsey will be the one who will help you in your future with makeup, hair and clothes.  I am really bad at it.  Finally you met your uncle and Godfather, Jeff.  Jeff was talking to you as if you were his.  I was almost jealous.  He was so natural.  Some day I hope that I am but right now it still so overwhelming.  I'm not sure of anything yet.  I know that I love you completely.

Friday, October 11th

This morning, you really smiled at me.  I felt my heart swell with love.  Sometimes I find myself just sitting and watching you just wondering what you will be.  The world is your oyster.  You can be anything you chose ~ an athletic, artist, singer, writer, doctor, psychologist, teacher, lawyer~ anything you want to be.  And I have been given the responsibility of guiding you.  I love you so much.

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Readers,

I hope you enjoyed reading this.  I can tell you that as I reread it.  My heart felt like it was going to burst again.  It was so magical a time for us.

10 Years Ago

Ok so I'm listening to the radio. I heard this remark that people wouldn't recognize themselves if they went back 10 to 20 years in their lives. Well I started thinking about it.

Lets see would I recognize myself 10 years ago...

• Well I would have been with my husband back then..
• I was having my fantasies already
• No kids yet
• Working outside the house
• Partying..Dancing

Ok I kinda recognize that but I have changed a lot since then. Lets see lets try 20 years ago

• Married and in love with Michael, my first husband
• He passed away
• Single and dating.. enjoying sex with my buddy
• Still having fantasies
• Working outside the house

Yes my life has definitely changed somewhat

Life is too short

Life is so short and so very precious. One doesn't think about things until they happen. I see my life changing before my eyes. I know it is what is suppose to happen. I have acknowledged who I am and what I am. I have no problems with me or even with what others think. I have learned from this experience to be strong for myself to accept that people will be who they are. I now know that I am happy as I am.

My kids are my blessing as is my family and friends. My friends are many. I admit how very lucky I am. This week will change things for me. I will reflect on who and what is important to me. I will reflect on my life and goals and directions that I want to follow. I will not rush into anything or anyone.

Random Thoughts

Running around the house pulling my hair..trying to get it all done...flowers here..flowers there... pull the weeds...mow the grass..swimming..baseball..tis the day for it all to happen.

welcome visitors...welcome friends...welcome the nut that shouldn't be here... cookout surprise..we wanna eat... do you think you could have told me at church? lol

got to love family..they complete us... the stimuate the mind

ohhh wait thats friends and family to stimulate the mind...

random thoughts oh my goodness what a good life tis mine